.: Thoughts

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Thoughts

Sorry gang I fell off the Earth for a moment during the past week and I missed posting on World AIDS Day which was Tuesday December 1st. That was the day of my kidney stone procedure with the fantastic folks at St. Mikes in Toronto. The procedure was actually no worse that a trip to the dentist, that is to say there is more apprehension then actual things to worry about. I got home and rested fairly well that night. It was the next day I fell off the edge... Pieces began to move down their inevitable path and I have to say the pain was nothing short of extraordinary, even compared to what I went through prior. I ramped up on the drugs they gave me and was only able to find comfort for a few minuets to a few hours at a time... same for sleep. Full on drugs only sacked me from doing anything, and I hated that. By Saturday I had reached my limit of pain x duration and went back to St. Mikes...within seconds of getting a bed, I began to feel better, now in the halo of morphine. New xrays confirmed the break up and movement of the stone... it was not what I had expected and quite frankly half of the stone is still logged where it was. One major jagged edged piece was 3/4 of its way down.... The Dr. on staff gave me some new drugs which would help lessen the pain and remove my need for the pain killers... pretty cool. I am feeling on the mend, at least for now.

Kidney Stones are one of the most painful illnesses on record, but generally its not a fatal one. For all of my personal rantings I want to keep it in perspective that there are worse illnesses in the world. There is such a long way to go to find a cure for AIDS. People continue to get sick and die, the thoughts of mine have been the personal toll to myself and my friends which has been enormous... Its been a long time since the years I was loosing 20 - 30 friends a year... And it only seems to be better now. We need to continue to push our knowledge towards a cure for all!

Every 12 seconds someone contracts HIV.

Every 16 seconds someone dies from AIDS.

Number of people with HIV in 2008:
TOTAL: 33,400,000
ADULTS: 31,300,000
WOMEN: 15,700,000
CHILDREN: 2,100,000
Number of AIDS deaths in 2008:
TOTAL: 2,000,000
ADULTS: 1,700,000
CHILDREN: 280,000

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Through New Eyes: The Photography of Christopher Cushman by Rinaldo Walcott

The Black male body remains an enigma despite its over representation in the public sphere. The dominance of hip hop culture globally, driven in part, but not exclusively by the innovative sounds of rap music have made Black men a standard by which Black men and other men judge themselves in contemporary culture. However, there is a paradox, because despite the prevalence of hip-hop’s popular global impact, Black men are also still some of the most despised men in Western culture. Stereotypes of criminality, disease and danger still abound and organize Black men’s lives, even within hip hop culture. Thus representations of Black men tend to be much more restricted, than open-ended. The struggle to bring Black men into complex open-ended representations has been an on-going historical struggle. One of the most potent forms of representation in the last one hundred and fifty years has been the photograph. Photography has offered the promise to represent the real in a manner that has both seduce its viewers and baffled them with its artifice. Black male photographic representations in the last half of the twentieth century and into the twenty-first have promised to rescue Black men from the confines of mis-representation and stereotype. One of the most difficult and complicated circumstances of Black male representations has been in the realm of representing their sexuality. Black men’s sexuality is still over-burdened by a perceived threat and danger, especially now in the hyped-up era of the downlow. Then along comes Cushman. I first hear of Christopher Cushman’s photography from my boyfriend. He told me of a guy who was taking photographs of black nudes based upon how they wanted themselves to be seen, not how he posed them as his models. When I met Cushman he confirmed that he did indeed work from the models’ suggested posed and not impose his own. The idea is a great one because it allows the models agency in choosing what they believe to be an adequate representation of who they are. While it is now true that in contemporary culture subjects have learned to play for the camera, offering us artifice on command, this artifice can be understood as exposing inner senses of self and being. Cushman’s photography captures and reveals those inner desires. Look at me, many of the models seems to say. But look at me anew, is also what they seem to project and insist on. Cushman’s eye lavishes these Black male bodies with glimmers of light revealing their nuance personalities. While most of the men are naked their individuality comes clearly through. And yet, their eyes too reveal that they belong to a community, a family and possess desires, fantasies and needs. In these photographs, as viewers we are given new eyes to see beyond our inner voyeur. Cushman channels, Robert Mapplethorpe, Rotimi Fani-Kayode and many other artists, commercial and amateur photographers who seek to rescue the Black male body from the disastrous depths of mis-representation, and who almost always fall short. The conversations that his models create between his work and others whether unconscious or not reveal the profound influence of the image in our time. However, in Cushman’s eyes the Black male body is not being rescued, instead it stands on a self-made pedestal, not arrogantly announcing its existence but coolly (its signature) singing its own praisesong as swathes of light and behind the camera love washes over it. In each moment a small but significant revelation is made. Each revelation offers us the opportunity of an Epiphany – to think a thought about a Black man that we have not thought before. Professor Rinaldo Walcott is a cultural critic and Canada Research Chair of Social Justice and Cultural Studies at the University of Toronto. He lives and writes in Toronto.

FIERCE! Being Black, Being Gay in America

"What Chris has done with this important collection of images, Fierce: Being Black, Being Gay in America, A Photographic Essay, is to seek, lift, and affirm the identity and visibility of men-who love-men and express it in many ways. His photographs display Midwest American men from the outlandish and flamboyant, to the subdued and subtle. You’d think these were “ladies who lunch;” muscular men dressed for the “Park” in lace, and floppy hats to give effect for all to see. Brothers connecting in places we know are safe, such as our nightclubs, the discos, and special events targeting our interests.

The importance of Fierce is paramount: all men are created equal, and share a space on earth. These portraits of men have to be recognized as God’s beauty and not His damnation. Time will thank those who were strong and dared enough to express themselves for all to see and appreciate in a manner that’s loving and creative. Time will also thank us for not living in a paranoid state of mind, and afraid of our own shadows. Remember, this cluster of work isn’t Robert Mappelthope’s approach to black imagery, but the approach of documenting men as they wanted to be seen: with and without sexual stimulation, for shock value."

Curtis A. Lipscomb
Executive Director Kick – The Agency for L-G-B-T African-Americans
Detroit Michigan / 2005
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